Introduction: – “Beyond the Fog”
I think I spent the majority of being 15 – being explosively angry, deeply depressed and viciously violent. You could safely say that it wasn’t one of my most desirable seasons in life!
I say I ‘think’ because I can’t be totally sure, because the whole of ages 14 & 15 are pretty-much a total blur to me; like some kind of thick primal fog, I don’t remember a lot of chronological details, birthdays, achievements, ‘normal-life-stuff’ – actually… I don’t remember much at all, because the ‘fog’ was/is so thick around those brutally-fragile years; But I do remember and know that it really wasn’t at all good and that it hurt… a lot!
The fog was partly self-induced, partly self-protection and partly an inevitable implosion as the walls of sensitivity, control, respect, belief & hope that I had both tried to build, and later… accepted and believed in… all came crashing down around me resulting in spectacular rage and dysfunction.
However, I still felt very deeply and in doing so I wrote… poetry (…of a kind?!). Most of what I wrote during this season is not fit nor appropriate to be repeated or reproduced in any fashion at all!
But hidden away in the midst of the fog there was a naive, simple little child, a little boy who dreamt and wrote poetry and little songs about friendship and about a different, better World.
In this section of the Blog, there are a couple of ‘child/teenage-poems’ from that season…
* (just move the cursor over “15” and select a title…).