‘Only when it’s Time’

‘Only When it’s Time’

“There’s a time for everything…” I’m sure that you have heard this many times and under many guises; and, in some ways, it’s another one of those “glass half-empty or half-full” statements.   

Of course, the original statement, or quote famously comes from the bible reference at the beginning of Ecclesiastes chapter 3. – “…to everything, there is a season…”; this, like the previous verse/quote is often thrown around glibly today as some kind of ‘get-out-of-jail-card’ or ‘side-stepping-disclaimer’ when we’re stuck in life or just don’t know what’s happening around us.

Well-meaning as it might be; it doesn’t necessarily help us in that particular moment! – However; it is still very true!   

It’s also something that can bring context, even a sense of peace and calm and assurance, amid the storms and chaos of our lives – if we let it!

As I write this, I am in my home, completely surrounded by boxes, bags and various taped-up furniture and home objects; because I’m packing to move home – again… – It’s time!

The first rumblings, indicating that the time was coming for me to move on, probably occurred a little over a year ago, in the interim it’s been a crazy season (for us all!).  A lot has happened and I’ve ‘achieved’, experienced and created a lot during the 5-years or so that I have been ‘here’ – but I would have like to have done so much more (ever the maximiser!) and now, it seems…I’ve run out of time.

Currently (as I write this) whilst I know that I’m leaving this home; I don’t have a new home to move into yet! – it’s all taking so much time to get sorted! 

Having said that; I leave here, encouraged, highly inspired and extremely excited because I know that I’m entering a brand-new season, – like never before!  But there’s still so much to be done…a lot of ‘doing’ a lot of ‘waiting’ (and…’waiting!’); – again, it all seems to take so much time

And yet, instead of despising, or trying to plough-through, fast-forward, brush-aside; we should embrace and celebrate the time as a gift and a much-needed equipping for that new season!

Be encouraged. ‘Something is ‘rumbling’ in you and it will emerge! – maybe in a small, calm, trickling brook, or soft rain – or maybe as an explosive volcano, either way, it will happen – BUT… ‘Only when it’s time’.

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– [Full poem text/audio below]: > *

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‘ONLY WHEN IT’S TIME’

I’ll pick the fruit of patient past

and allow its life-blood juice, to stain my heart forever,

walk in the field of gently swaying nostalgia

brushing my legs with memories that will not let me go;

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I’ll unlock the vault of secret hopes denied

and expose them to a bruising indifferent world,

sit at the table of polite conversation

with those who would scheme and plan my certain ruin;

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cause my knees to bleed –

kneeling in humble admittance of my wrong,

which has jarred and fractured the spine of confident security,

weep with those for whom grief has overwhelmed_

in a blanket-like, volcanic lava’d tomb;

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I’ll embrace the dawn

and forgive the night of unjust pre-pubescent spite

I’ll think of your Name, whisper your Name, shout your Name!

I’ll rise up out of the cesspit of my self-pity

and claim the Promise of a renewed, fragrant identity

and surrender the worn, tired, jaded representations

of a former self.

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I’ll join in celebration – as the time has come

for the cup of suffering to finally pass me by;

I will remove the “do not resuscitate” order

placed on the door of my dreams

and with a healthy disdain for the rules – choose life!

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I’ll dissolve my quiet, unyielding anger,

give You Your answer,

trust You with my thoughts

trust You with my heart …. again.

I’ll take a breath … deeply inhale your judgment

and my vindication,

I’ll do all this, that I have said –

but – only when it’s time.

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(C) DANNY SCOTT / danny@core-arts.uk

“I (really) don’t know where to start…”

I wrote this for a special friend and relative; someone I grew up and shared some wonderful life-moments with as a young kid; someone that I only recently properly reconnected with after more than 20 years!

‘Time’ simply slipped by, weeks became months, months became years – years became decades!…

I’ve always looked back on our time together with joy, affection and fondness, and I couldn’t really understand why, or how, we’d drifted apart?… but we did…

So, I made the simple decision to reconnect – and we’re both so glad that I did!

How about you? – Is there someone ‘out there’ who you want/need to reconnect with- perhaps?

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“I (really) don’t know where to start…”

I don’t really know where to start…

– and ‘certainly don’t know what to say…

So many years have come and gone – ‘moments just slipped away…

-(The) memories survive untroubled, full of beauty, love and care –

‘Playful-joy and tender-depth – contentment in the air

The memories and mystery play out their own duet- In tune and precious harmony, that I’ll never forget,

The melody; p’raps more obscure – meanders through the rhyme-

Fading in and out, and (even) almost lost…in time…

-But she always reappears- smiling!… on ‘horizons-distant-face’ –

-Then softly floats through chords and notes into my heart –

‘her resting place…

-It’s like we had some hidden-code – that only we both knew…

-things around might fracture – but our friendship simply grew…

– Effortless and innocent -affectionate and fun-

‘Natural understanding -a precious journey had begun;

Summer holidays abound, ‘creativity’ took flight-

Writing songs and poems – ‘singing late into the night…

-Then the shadows fall – the season’s gone… (and) I quietly reminisce…

Through the shifting haze of those ‘care-free-days’… I see it’s ‘you’…I miss-

The tune- never stopped playing…

– The melody… ’more clear…

– (it’s) just swamped in ‘life’s percussion’ – so it’s harder now to hear…

I began by saying that… “I really don’t know where to start…”

I’ll end with this: – “You have a special place within my heart…”(‘Always…’).

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(C) Danny Scott: 21/03/2020.

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